Fall in May

It is incredible how quickly time seems to be passing by. I stepped inside Hobby Lobby today to grab a couple of DMC skeins and they already showcasing their Fall items even before summer has officially begun. 

It made me think FALL, and I realized I am not ready for the Fall yet, because I didn't have time to enjoy Summer yet. The transition from one season to another appears to be happening faster than ever, making me feel like I barely have time to fully enjoy each season before the next one arrives.

The sight of autumn decorations in the store while we are still anticipating the warmth of summer is a bit disorienting, but serves as a reminder of how fleeting time can be.

 

I abruptly stopped posting on my blog 7 years ago back in 2017. After festively greeting a new 2017 year on January 3^rd, I couldn’t even imagine that in 20 days I would have realized that 2017 was the worst year in my life.

On 23^rd January 2017 I tragically lost my son Egor at his 21.

The life completely changed, my heart shuttered in small pieces, my soul died, my brain fogged, my eyes were puffed from endless crying, and still… 7 years later it still shockingly hurts, and I don’t know who I am anymore and why I am here. The purpose of life is lost and there are still so many questions. I miss Egor terribly, his personality, his jokes, his smile, his wise advice, his opinions.

7 years later, today, I decided to come back to my blog. I realized I need a space for a rant, just a place where I can keep sharing my thoughts (or, I would rather say, to learn how to speak again), my ideas, my work. So, please, be patient with me…

Small things make big days,
Natalia